It’s always possible to know if and when something is wrong with her, plus I’ll know if she’s showing any signs of sadness or even depression, because I know what it looks like. I just remember how she was when Finn pretty much threw her out of the closet during our senior year, that was the first time I actually saw another side of her and let her emotions run out. As much as I’d hate for her to find that out, did she ever go and get herself checked out just in case that was true?
I’ve never thought she got the good end of the deal, of course none of us really have had the most ideal life but we take what we can get. Lately she’s kinda just blocked out all of that jazz, so not telling what’s really going on in her head. I mean that’s kind of Santana’s way too so she could be depressed and we just don’t know. As far as I know she never got that checked out, I’ve never really asked because it was such a touchy subject I didn’t need it backfiring on me.
She’s not as bad as she was back in high school, I’d like to think that she’s a little bit more open with how she feels then she was back then. Well, when she has someone, they normally keep her calm and happy, and honestly, that’s all I want her to be, but it’s the complete opposite when she’s alone. I think I might of been up for that part, I mean, I remember her trying to blame herself for what happened, then I just remember her kind of breaking down.
I think she’s not got much to hide living with people instead of trying to worry about what people are going to think of her. She’s not got anything to hide from us since we’re always around and always open around her. A name here and there isn’t half as bad as being actually picked on by someone. With her being as conservative as she is now I do question somethings she says, but she’s only ever been open with me that once. I just remember her saying she’d probably never be able to have kids.
Yeah, she really is, also I don’t think we could ever live without her, even though she kind of made high school a living hell for some of us, she still does that a little bit today. I think she was only that sweet when she used to be around Brittany, she could never act any other way around her. It happened a while ago, though. If it’s something you don’t want me to hear about then I won’t bug you to tell me.
She’s not as bad as she was back in High School, what little bit I do know of her, I mean. She’s always had an attitude but like we’ve both said that’s part of her twisted personality. She’s always been better when she’s had someone else to be around, honestly I like her better when she’s with someone, via getting laid, she’s more relaxed about things. It’s nothing I don’t want you to hear, it’s something along the lines of how depressed she was. I mean, Santana had a real break down about that.
Your mom may be picky, but she’s still a sweet women. Even if that’s how Santana’s personality is and we don’t like it all that much, we still love her. It just so happens that she has a sort of unique personality. I don’t know about you, but I honestly couldn’t see her as anything but a snarky bitch, I can’t see her as a goody two shoes like Rachel. I wouldn’t know that much about what conversation you had, seeing as though I was sleeping the whole time you guys were talking.
She’s probably the sweetest, and kindest, who also tries to be understanding. Without a doubt we love Santana, she’s kinda like the glue to keep us all together really. I don’t think I could either, if she started acting more like Rachel I’d probably think something was seriously wrong with her. I know you don’t know much about it, but it’s nothing you needed to hear then, and nothing you’d want to hear now.
One of the many reasons why your mom is one the best people I’ve ever met. When don’t we ever see her flipping her can? Honestly, she’s always had a temper, mostly every little things makes her go off, she’s always got a snarky come back or nickname to throw at us. I just sometimes wish she would just realize that we’re here for her if she ever needs to vent or have somebody to listen to her and let those emotions fall out, I don’t like it when she keeps them bottle up or just throws it off to the side.
My mom is a picky woman, I guess that’s just what makes her personality up. Santana, I don’t know she just seems to put all of her thoughts and things on the back burner until something goes wrong so she can explode and make it seem like it was no big deal. I personally don’t like that trait about her, but we both know that that’s what makes her personality, hers. The only time that I’ve ever truly had a sit down with Santana and it actually go somewhat like a normal conversation was when you lost the baby.
At least your mom handles the situations better than your dad ever does. There’s really only a small number of times I’ve actually seen Santana show her emotions, and it’s when she’s either really happy or when she’s just plain angry, and sometimes upset. I’ve been kind of wanting to talk to her, but I’m always afraid she’ll blow up in my face if I ask her too many questions. I know, but I was just saying.
That’s because my mom actually deals with them, even if she’s proving she doesn’t like it. Usually every time I’ve seen it she’s flipping her can. She’s got quite the temper on her. The last time I talked to her though she seemed alright with it all, and we both know she’d make it a point if she was pissed off of any sort. I’m not sure what would come of it, honestly that’s her just hiding her feelings once again.
I know that she does, she loves the both of them and yeah, she really was, which is why I adore your mom. She’s just not one to show her emotions, honestly, when she does that, I feel like there’s something really going on, and I just worry about her sometimes. No, we’ve talked that over with the both of them about bringing random people into the house and they know the rules that they have to follow when they’re living with us. I hope that would never be a problem even if the twins were involved or not.
I love my mom, even if her and I don’t always agree on the way things happen. I still love her either way. Santana is weird about that, and by weird I mean she’s damn good at hiding her emotions, that is until all hell breaks loose. I’ve tried talking to her, but that doesn’t always mean she’s going to open up. I don’t think they’d break the rules, this far into living with us, we’re all comfortable here with the way things are.
I know your mom would, I remember how good she was with Emmy once she was born. She’s always been like that, though, even back at McKinley that’s how she was, and I really don’t think she’ll change. Yeah, I know how that gets when it happens, too. I don’t think we’re tying them down and I’m sure they don’t feel that way, we give them their freedom, they’re allowed to do whatever they want.
She loves Melody too, she was really helpful when we got home from the hospital with Emmy. We both know how much trouble it’s caused her being like that to, but I know what you mean, it’s just part of Santana’s way I guess. As long as it’s not bringing strangers in he house then it’s fine. That’s all I worry about because of our little ones. Which I’m sure we’re not going to have that as a problem, especially now with Rachel having the twins.
I’m sure if you give them a call and ask them, then I’m positive they’ll be more than happy to watch them. It’s not that she’s odd, she’s just the type of girl that doesn’t like showing her emotions so that people can actually read and see what’s going on with her. I wouldn’t be complaining either, because having a built in babysitter would be great. Yeah, I know, but we’ve put up with all of their craziness and everything else that’s happened with them living with us.
I’m pretty sure mom would jump right on that if I gave her the chance, that’s just the type of person she is. I get that, but then on the other hand I’m not so sure if that’s a healthy thing for her to be doing or not. I know how messy things get when you bottle things up. I just don’t want Rachel or Santana to feel like we’re tying them down here. Santana likes to get out, and Rachel she’s going to end up doing her own thing soon too.
Just don’t think about what your dad might do, I don’t need you freaking out. I don’t know, I have a feeling that she’ll still stick around. She might learn to deal with their crankiness while she’s watching them. Santana knows that, too, and I’m sure she loves them just as much as we do, so she’ll put up with them, if it means having a roof over her head for now until she decides to find a place of her own.
Alright, I promise if they can possibly watch the girls while we’re in Ohio then by all means I’ll let them watch the girls. Santana is an odd one, you can never truly tell with her. Not that I’m complaining she might stay, cause that means she’s a built in babysitter when we need her. Don’t get me wrong, I love having both Rachel and Santana around, it’s rough sometimes though.